Wonder

Ever have one of those days where ya wonder why something is happening to you/ what are you supposed to learn from it?

That's me today wondering and hoping for answers.

I hope you have some insights into whatever it is you're facing too.

A wise Godly man once told me and my class in high school: life can either make you bitter or better.

I hope the situation I'm facing will (somehow) make me better.

Have a good day all. :)
JB
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Chemotherapy & Technology

Heyas all,

I must say getting chemotherapy isn't all that it's cracked up to be. :P LOL

It is nifty in that they can use an IV pump and put 1,000 mL of fluid through your system in a matter of 2 hours. Gang, that's nothing to sneeze at. On a sidenote, it does make sure your kidneys are working. :P

I'm doing ok and I don't think I could go on one of those eat green and purple food health diets which saves you from cancer etc etc.

For crying out loud I'm a techie, I couldn't be a food guy. If the technology is there for chemo, I'm gonna use it.


I must say so far so good. Medicine helps too along with the technology so chemo isn't as bad as some might say. I could be wrong and it might catch up with me over the weekend who knows.

The unknown part is that chemo affects people in different ways. So it isn't like you could say you'll have symptoms 1-5. No, you might get one or all 5. It depends.


So there's my rant.

Have a good day all. :)

Staring Down the Barrel

Ever face a moment in life where ya were staring down into the barrel of something bad? I don't mean an actual gun rather in a figurative sense.

I unfortunately had to face my own life head on. Due to some medical stuff, I could either be facing life or death. Cancer has hit me though the kind I have is curable. I don't have any specifics or details yet, we'll see what happens.

One might think I should have a bad outlook on stuff and what is gonna happen next. I don't. Why? I can't control it and besides modern technology and medicine is pretty cool. I had my first cat-scan the other day. Basically a big doughnut and I was moved back and forth on it while being scanned. Pretty nifty to say the least.

So don't be against technology til ya try it. It might be better then ya expected.

That's it all and have a good one! :)

Technology & Distance

Isn't chatting or calling a friend overseas fun? I can agree with the rest of you that it is. I even had a webcam chat with a buddy who was in China for work. It was cool and awesome to see him.

It still amazes me one can be chatting with someone who's on the other side of the world in real time. Pretty awesome.

One program I would recommend is called Skype. It's secure, reliable, and has great voice quality. Plus it's free; Skype to Skype PC calls are. Skype to a land line is not.

Try it and see what you think.

http://www.skype.com
JB
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New Tech in a Movie

So, you wanna see some new technology? How about stuff that's not even here yet?

If so, then go watch Star Trek. There's new technology plus a darn AWSOME movie. :D

JB
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Appreciation

One thing that occurred to be the other day as I was driving home in this warm weather and tonight where friends we're sharing their life experiences, is how we as humans don't appreciate things or the "little things" as much as we should.

I do that at times, do you?

We all are happy when it is sunny and warm (especially here in Michigan) after the winter season or a bad storm.   My friends were telling about how they had just 1 faucet or going from a toilet outside to one inside the house.  To me that's something else.  I am blessed to be living in the time I'm in.  Heck, I was able to chat with my webcam with a good friend of mine who was over in China for some work stuff.  It was as if we were in the same room yet thousands and thousands of miles apart.  Neat huh?

God appreciates us as well.  Here's the difference though: it is so vast, everyday non-stop, and it doesn't matter on what happens on day 42.   Seriously.  His love and appreciation for us is so much, if we felt the full brunt of it, we'd go insane I'd think.  Isn't that awesome about God?  I sure think so.  :D

Just something to much on & think about.

Have a good day all :)

New Game Technology

Check this out!!!

http://www.onlive.com


Press Conference Video:
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Thoughts on Unity

Heyas everyone,

Today while at the Surgical Center (Building P) while at the Cleveland Clinic, something struck me.  It was the thought of unity.  One might not have that while waiting for a loved one to get out of surgery or just killing time waiting until he or she can get an update from the doctor.  It stuck me when I walked around just to stretch my legs a bit.  Out from (when we arrived at 6 AM nobody was there) where the main doors and on the main floor were people just waiting for a loved one to get out or surgery, get the doctor call, or a text messages notifying them of their loved one's progress.  They were all there just sitting, some sleeping, and others using their PCs and we all had something in common: we were unified in the waiting process.  Granted some might have not believed in God, were from the West coast, or even might not have had English as their main language, we still were waiting.  Some had just started the wait game for today, others were even here before we showed up.  Many I'm sure were anxious just like myself yet, regardless we all were waiting.

So, even when things seem down or might not make sense look around.  You might have something common with the person sitting next to you.  

Have a good day all.  :)

Love & Life

Love is a curious thing.  It can bring two people closer together or at times drive them apart.  I am currently finding out more about this weird thing we call love.  I'm not going to share all the details, yet I will say it is interesting to say the least.

So far it has been rough and painful, yet I'm moving forward as best I can in this relationship.   Some might say, "John, this relationship of yours does not count, it isn't real."  That might be true yet, considering a friend and I had a few knocking of the heads yet, we made up, doesn't that show that it isn't "fake?"  If it was, this relationship would be over in my opinion.

One thing regarding human love is that it can change, not be entirely real or fade vs. God's love is non-stop and has no bounds.  To me that is pretty cool considering some of the crap & bad stuff I have done.  

Still this relationship I have is different; I don't know what is or will be down the road nor am I shutting out my other friends.  I'm just sharing that I am learning/finding out more.  

Is this love thing singled out and nobody else?  No, otherwise I could not love Dad, Mom, or my brother.  Love is complex and has different meanings/layers just like our relationships.  One thing in communications class is that a relationship is like an onion.  Layers ranging from surface stuff i.e. how are you?  to the deep, inner core i.e. what is your deepest fear?  That kinda stuff.

I hope that helps and just gives ya something to chew on as you go through this week.

Have a good one all.  :)

New Star Trek Online Video!

WOOT!

I am so excited about this upcoming game; I will say this Star Trek game will probably be the one (only?) game I do my best to get on, and play my heart out in. I've included the new character creator trailer plus the Star Trek Online trailer itself so enjoy.

:D

Relationships

One wonders about life at times. I have found out (as many of you out there have) that any relationship is complex and can be challenging as well. The key thing about any relationship is that one must be diligent in working stuff out. Be it good or bad or something entirely in between. That is the key. If one forgets to do that, things will get funky that's for sure. I'm not even talking about marriages here, just the regular friends you have at work, church, school, etc.


One of my friends and had a long talk last night (chatting online if you wanna be picky :P ) about some stuff. What was going on between us/what each of us thought about our friendship. It was a good talk don't get me wrong and somewhat confusing. Though the key is we talked vs just one of us bailing out. Something stuck my nerve and I pinged my friend and said ok have fun/whatever and was gonna just log and go sleep. Yet, my friend said hold on wait/talk and we did for quite awhile. I'm glad my friend did that.


So, in closing if you are feeling funky about a relationship, just sit down over a cup of coffee and just talk. You'll be amazed at how just by talking, discussing, and thinking about what's going on how it will help you then and down the road. The bonus of course, it makes your relationship stronger. :)

Snow and Nature

Well, I am not a big fan of snow. Granted I use a snowblower to move it for a snow shovel as necessary, I still hate it with a passion. Why you might ask? I'm either clearing off the driveway or driving it in, neither of which is fun.

Now today I had to snow rake the roof to remove the snow that was piling up. It did go easier then normal due to the warm temperature outside today. Now as I was doing it I stopped and took a brake a bit while doing it. The folks have a big roof let me tell you! lol Anyways, I stopped once and just looked around and listened. It was funny due to it was quiet, mostly everything had some snow on it, and it was just cool. Usually I'm not one to do that (especially regarding snow). I guess I just had some time to relax while working, clear my mind, and appreciate the prettiness/beauty of nature.

I also had a thought regarding snow, how it says in the Bible that we'll be cleansed as white as now plus how it related to the seasons. Think of it, winter where stuff dies and the white snow covers it. Next is spring where there's green and new life comes back and kicking. Summer where the temperature warms and the sun is out making life/the plants/trees etc greener and more oomfy. Fall where the leaves change color (who we in life might change our hearts or thoughts about God) plus this is the time where the plant/trees etc get ready to shut down and some even might die. Then the cycle goes all over again. Some neat connections there don't ya think?


That's it for now everybody. Enjoy! :0

Life and the Road we Travel

Heyas all,

Recently I am facing once again an issue of life and death in my family. It is not easy for sure yet, it causes me to wonder about things. Particularly, "Why is it happening to me?," and second "What am I supposed to learn from this (insert any situation here)?" It is puzzling and not cool to say the least. I of course and doing the typically thing of sorta knocking on God's door and saying, "Hey man, why? What did I do this time?" Ya know?

I just keep moving forward as best I can even though it is not easy. I guess the key thing to remember in any tough event, is that we are human not robots. We do cry and that's an OK thing to do. Besides it helps, just try it sometime you'd be amazed.

That's all for now & have a good one! :)

Thoughts

Ever had one of those days were you were just doing your own thing then suddenly something just hit you? No, I'm not talking about a two by four rather just a thought? That happened to me today.....

I was chatting online when my mind wandered back to my previous post here...plus at how I am not quite lining up like I should be... Let me use analogy/word picture to help you out

I have been sitting on a fence with a leg hanging over each side or I have both feet on either side of the yellow lines on a road. The left side being bad and the right side being good. Now we all know that we cannot as God said be either hot or cold (a song comes to mind that sorta fits it). Somehow I have been at least thinking I've been doing both yet that cannot really be. Rather I've been on the left (bad side of the road) and other days I've been on the right (good side). Lately I've been on the bad side more than the good; granted that does not sound cool yet, I have been having fun on the bad side. As with anything, the bad stuff (things we should not do) are the hardest to drop and give up at times. I know how that is friends......


I went to Granger Community Church this past weekend and Dr. Beeson was asking various questions. One had to deal with "Can someone loose his or her salvation?" He responded rather interestingly. He stated that the question was not more about can him/her loose salvation rather from a heart wanting to know basically how far can I go to the edge before I fall off it. He asked us a question which was (and I'm paraphrasing) "Where is your heart pointed? Towards Jesus or as far away as possible?" Let's just say that I was going away and somehow now (today/this weekend whatever) I guess I'm feeling somewhat convicted? Sorta? I'm not entirely sure.....I still am figuring that out.


I know it might seem like I sound down/bummed but I'm not. I'm alive and could be in a totally different part of the world. I just want you to know that I struggle just as you do with life and questions etc. It is part of learning and growing as we travel down the road of life.


Have a good day all. :)

2009 & New Stuff

Hello everyone,

The new year has official started! Woot! So, what does that mean for you? Only you can answer that question. For myself, I have decided to become part of a newsletter team at church. That for me is new. Why? I haven't done much there since I stepped down as Media Director back in May of 2008. I do not know what it all entails nor how things will go. It basically started after speaking with Deb and saying that I should be willing to be part of the solution/help (that is the key thing with numerous church or business realms). I just kept pointing out errors in the newsletter vs saying Hey, I'm detail oriented/ I have some technical skills.

I must admit that is the hardest thing to do nowadays: become part of the solution. It is so much easier to critique or add one's thoughts vs saying I'll get down in the mud and help get this box outta here or whatever. I will say I am not fond of getting into the mud nor wanting to help out at times yet, one must help another or we are all doomed in this life. Jesus stated that rather simply: love God and love your neighbor. Boom done. So you might be thinking, "how does Jesus' command apply to me?" Well, in order to love someone, doesn't that mean you help them out at times? You might give them a ride to work or help them move furniture or even fix a PC. Think about that friends.



Also, my Blog is new. I've added some blogs that I keep an eye on plus I have renamed my blog title. That is new as of this year as well. I hope to keep this blog more up to date then in the past. Plus I am also considering joining part of the Twitter bandwagon though I have not yet made up my mind. Please feel free to send me your thoughts and comments regarding the program.


Have an awesome New Year everyone! :)